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Shan's Mending Fences

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  “Now His betrayer had given them a sign, saying whomever I kiss, He is the One; seize Him.” Immediately he went up to Jesus and said, “Greetings, Rabbi!” and kissed him. But Jesus said to him, “Friend why have you come?” Matthew 26 vs 48-50.  I had to sit with this scripture for a few days to truly process it. The level of humility that Jesus exercised in this entire chapter is astounding. Personally, I could not have gotten through dinner without emotions all over my face, knowing that one of my friends would eventually betray me. Forgiveness is not always easy but the more I rest in Jesus I see it truly takes a level of humility and selflessness.  People will hurt us, and sadly oftentimes the worst pain comes from the ones closest to us.  I have experienced a lot of hurt and betrayal in my life but I have come to the realization that for me to be free, there are certain things and certain people that I have to release from my system.  I’ve battled with the concept of forgiveness an

Mending Fences - Part 1

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  How many gaping holes are in the fence guarding your heart and life? Inevitably, over the course of living, there are people who have smashed through that fence, leaving areas of it in pieces, in the wake of their involvement in your life. I’ve stood speechless and heartbroken looking at those holes, shattered, as a result of lies, jealousy, unchecked speeches, and just plain ‘bad mindedness’ (as my fellow Jamaicans would say). I can hold a grudge. I have held many over the years.   Some I’ve held because of those very instances where people plummeted through the fence that guards my heart, while others, I don’t even remember the root cause. Yet, even after coming to the realization that I could no longer remember why I was upset with someone, I still felt the need to not talk to the person. Silly isn’t it? The fallible beings that we are have a natural tendency to judge, even when we can glimpse parts of us in the story of others.   Again, today I am saying, don’t judge me. My