Giving while healing - Part 2

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" Weeping may endure for a night but joy comes in the morning" Psalm 30 vs 5.  

This has been one of my favourite verses to repeat in my mind each time I am faced with a difficult situation.  


In one of my earlier blogs, I spoke briefly of a situation that had occurred with the other parent and King during parenting time. I remember the day quite vividly; I sat in bed with King that night holding on to him so tightly and praying that his bruises would go away. My heart further broke as I assessed the emotional impact this would have on him as I tried to navigate his own process of healing with him. 


That experience took me back to my own experience as a child where I was so badly beaten to the point where my face was unrecognizable. I challenged God and had some serious conversation with Him. Why me? Why my son? How can I possibly help him through this and his healing when I am also healing?  


Well needless to say, somehow, I found the strength to give to this little boy what God has blessed me with while I too was going through my healing.  


The journey required me to be vulnerable with myself and my son. I had to explain to him that his pain was not his fault and in order for him to be released he had to forgive. Several counseling sessions later, numerous emotional breakdowns, while calling on our village, the healing process continues.  


There is no date fixed in stone on when one should attain their healing. It is instead a process. I have used my pain and invested it into my purpose, and channeled my son's hurt into his gifting of music.  


Giving and healing are not separate entities. I find the more I give whether by praying for someone who is in need, speaking with my son about the importance of forgiveness, or hosting an empowerment session, it is the more my heart feels at peace. It is during these times that I am thankful for the pain I have had to endure through the years as due to this I am able to give back in a meaningful way.  


It is well with my soul! I cannot say to you today that I am completely healed from situations that I have experienced but what I do know is He is still working on me. 


~Shan~

Comments

  1. Unknown6 December 2020 at 07:52

    God's grace is always sufficient, Sister. Keep praying, keep trusting... Keep on keeping on. He will see you through. Standing with you in prayer for you precious Son.

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  2. Paula Millen6 December 2020 at 08:00

    May God's amazing healing continue for you both. Thanks for sharing.

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  3. Glenda Miller6 December 2020 at 12:25

    The more you share the more you are healed. Good is merciful especially in times of trouble. Remain faithful he will see you and us through.

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  4. Glenda Miller6 December 2020 at 12:27

    The more you share the more you are healed. Good is merciful especially in times of trouble. Remain faithful he will see you and us through.

    ReplyDelete

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